Tayla Damir has shared a very honest video to her YouTube channel that delves into her struggle with anxiety, which she has had ever since she was a young girl at school.
The reality star came over all emotional in the 30-minute long clip, as she candidly admitted her anxiety battle had left her feeling suicidal when she was in high school.
Tayla, 22, recalled the ‘very dark’ time that stemmed from a ‘toxic’ relationship in her teens, but told fans she is ‘so glad’ she fought through her anxiety, before revealing her stint on Love Island actually helped her with her mental health.
‘There were days I didn’t think I could do life anymore’: Tayla Damir admitted to previously having suicidal thoughts while struggling with anxiety… before crediting Love Island for ‘helping’ her mental health
Wanting to share her experience with mental health, Tayla shared a revealing and bravely honest video with fans, where she discussed in depth how her anxiety used to get the best of her.
She explained she used to act out in anger because she didn’t know how to deal with her anxiety and suffered from an ‘underlying fear of not feeling good enough’.
Tayla admits her first relationship when she was in high school made her anxiety worse as it was ‘very toxic’ and ‘abusive’, both physically and mentally.
‘I hit some really low points, especially during that first relationship,’ Tayla said, as she began to tear up.
Getting really honest with viewers, she confessed: ‘I remember just thinking my life would be easier if it did end then and there.’
‘That upsets me so much now, I got through that point and… I wish I could go back and just tell myself at that age and that vulnerable part of my life that it gets better,’ Tayla said, composing herself.
Rise to fame: Tayla is most known for winning Love Island Australia in 2018 and she claims the show has actually ‘helped’ her with her mental health (pictured on the show)
‘You have moments in your life where someone impacts you so much that it honestly changes the whole course of your life, this did,’ she said.
The beauty explained how she then realised her anxiety was causing her to suffer from depression, but with the help of exercise and mindfulness, she learned how to control it and become OK with being on her own.
Following university, Tayla moved to Byron Bay by herself, but said it was her stint on Love Island last year that made her realise how ‘strong’ she is now.
Heartbreaking: Tayla admits her first relationship when she was in high school made her anxiety worse as it was ‘very toxic’ and ‘abusive’, with her confessing: ‘I remember just thinking my life would be easier if it did end then and there’
Better place: While explaining she has learned how to deal with her anxiety better, Tayla said it was her stint on Love Island last year that made her realise how ‘strong’ she is now
Crediting the dating reality show for actually benefiting her mental health, Tayla told fans: ‘If anything, going on reality TV showed me if I can get through that, I can get through anything. I came out so much stronger, it actually helped my mental health.’
Tayla admitted that there were still times after leaving Love Island that she would ‘cry in the corner’ and seek help from her mum, dad and ex-boyfriend Dom Thomas – who she split from in June.
But, she added that she has now learned how to control her anxiety: ‘Anxiety is always going to be with me, but it’s somewhat an advantage because it’s a reminder I need to look after myself.’
‘Yourself, your health and your mental state, is so much more important than anything else,’ she insisted.
All over: Tayla went on to date her co-star Dom Thomas (pictured above) after winning Love Island Australia with ex Grant Crapp – but they announced their split in June